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Saturday, December 26, 2009

see you in 2010

halo,hari ini hari terakhir saya sms an sama rio di tahun ini. setelah dia mengagetkan saya kemaren bahwa ia akan berangkat ke ujung kulon hari ini yang membuat saya rasanya setengah pingsan dan ingin terjun bebas ke jurang. shock setengah berat,berat sih.... berat banget malah. berarti bulcup adalah hari terakhir saya bertemu dengannya yang cuma kira-kira setengah jam ditambah dengan ngumpet kuadrat karna berada di area yang kurang aman. yaaaah yaudahlah,ini bukan akhir dari segalanya. huahahaha goodluck ya rio yang ada ekskul stuff disana. didoain yang terbaik langsung dari pacarnya ;p hahaha ah udah ah mau packing dulu nih selasa ke bali wekekekek bye cemua ci yu in 2010,lop yu pul

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

whateva

blogger,setelah memposting 2 apa 3 ya tadi? pokonya postingan2 sebelumnya hari ini,ini adalah postingan terkhir hari ini

bosen ya liburan 80% dihabiskan dirumah :( tapi kayaknya mau melanjutkan liburan kalo nggak di bali di medan. kenapa? pertama kalo dibali,teman papaku punya villa disitu jadi murah dan menyenangkan. kedua,kenapa di medan? soalnya keluarga besarku yang baik-baik dan ramah-ramah semua tinggal disana jadi kalo kesana hidupku bisa tentram damai dan sejahtera ditambah dapet pemasukan tambahan yang plus plus dan lumayan buat kemiskinan yang pasti melanda tahun depan. tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii dengan berliburnya aku yang pasti ke luar kota,pastinya meninggalakan jakarta yaaaaaaaah sepi dong pasti. yah yaudah deh kapan2 lagi posting okeeeee,tp kayaknya sih bakalan taun depan. jadiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ngucapin slmt natal sm tahun barunya sekarang aja yaaaa hehehehe okdeh bye

xoxo

GKaribia

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand some picture from my friend camera whota take it when i and my 5 other dance partner dance at my school's event called GKaribia,check it out


sinematografi

this is some last month stuff when i and some of my classmate friends made our school's project called cinematoghrapy (is the spell's rite? who cares) here is it and i'm the girl who wearing pink t-shirt :)



Saturday, October 10, 2009

strezism

halo semuanya,mau cerita nih senang sekali bisa dilantik pkc. ga akan bercerita ttg itu tapi yg pasti seneng banget :D makasih ya agit pkcnya,baik baik,cantiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiik banget lagi semuaa!!! hehe bukan penjilat nih tapi beneraaan!! haha karena dapet kesenengan yang luar biasa parah banget ini,gue diimbangi dengan dapet masalah juga. tapi ga akan bercerita juga disini,yang pastinya lumayan bikin gue down tapi ttp harus bisa mempertahankannya. okedeh gitu aja. wekeend udah dateng niw boy,pada kemana? gue sih tidur. soalnya gaada uang juga,udah habis bis bis buat seminggu ini yang juga mengharuskan gue pulang kerumah tiap hari malem,kerja sampe malem,ngorbanin waktu,pikiran,tenaga. dan gue sangat tidak menyesal. have fun semuaaaa bye

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

1 left

SCIENCE CLASS

X-ALAM 4

THANKS GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEREFORE,1 TO DO LEFT!
YEEEEEEEEEEEEAHHHHHS

Saturday, August 15, 2009

2 dreams come true!

1st: Got into dance club or as known as pkc in 70, I REALLY love this part. thanks God for give me a chance to continue what i've done

2nd: I'd change my relationship status into in a relationship hehehe :p but it may be not in a relationship but reconnected hahaha, you know laaaaah

ok and now i try too ruuuun as fast as i can to make my 2 other dreams come truee :)

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Progress

4 things in progress recently: Got into science class (i really need this one,for my parents and forrrr my doctor dreaaaam job), got into dance club (okay for this,it's not only in progress..i got it!! surprise.... surprise...), change my relationship status (sometimes i neeed), And Baliiiiiiiiii for next year!!! (i can't stand how much i want baliiiiii with my new highschooler friends!!! we'd prepare for this,even it may come next yearrrr we don't careee,cause we already stick each otherrrr,muaaah)

hope i'll got it as fast as it caaaan!

Friday, July 10, 2009

Drugs

4 years ago,i hate you
your face are so arrogant
with you and your jacket style
through my room

Then we know each other from one of my friend
and you said that you love me
we go for 1 years

i hate cigarettes
you play behind my back with it
i felt so sad
won't my prince got into it
then we broke up

but we reconnected
6 months after we broke up
i give you a chance
and i'm so deep into you

but,yeah i'm a childish
i broke up with you,again.
i thought if you're my prince
we'll back again some day later

now i turn around
you with her now
i'm with him yesterday
i told you about him
you won't tell me about her
i don't know why?

Then after i'm over it
you go close your door
and broke the key
so i feel like i can't open it again

why?
you go,you don't care
i don't know
aren't you just pretend?
or this is real?

why?
you make my mind blow up
you so hard to forget
is there any 3rd chance?

if i am your princess
would you be my prince?
i'm here to make sure your answer
whatever you couldn't hear
you can't understand

yeah,i'm addicted to you
just like my heroin
you're my drugs

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Welcome Highschool

First,it's gonna be awesome
new friends. new uniform (bye white-blue <--nyolot mode). new teachers. new world. i feel excited!! I can't wait for highschool! Seventy for us,Fight for seventy!! Welcome Highschool,dare to know you!


Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Fight For Seventy ♥

http://jakarta.siap-psb.com/seleksi.php?sekolah=31000070

terakhir sih nama gue ada di link itu. page 2 urutan 60.
doain ya semoga keterima 70 ga turun-turun lagi :( takutttttttt!!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Nobody

I am nobody. Nobody is perfect. Therefore i am perfect

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Now I Found You Guys

Dulu Harun pernah nanya: kamu pernah ga punya temen yang bener-bener temen,sampe semuanya yang kita punya kita percayain ke mereka? Atau yang udah lama dari kecil,sampe udah bener-bener deket?
Dan waktu itu gue jawab,belum.
Ya,dulu gue pikir belum ada orang yang bisa disebut teman dengan kriteria tersebut. semuanya ga bisa dipercaya,semuanya mendekatkan diri cuma kalo butuh sesuatu.

Tapi ternyata gue salah. Sekarang gue berani jawab iya,gue udah dapet bahkan yang lebih dari itu. cuma gue baru sadar ketulusan hati mereka bahkan saat yang namanya perpisahan itu udah di depan mata.

Temen-temen yang hatinya tulus. yang jaman sekarang mau membantu tanpa pamrih,mendukung satu sama lain,memberi pundak saat gue nangis,memberi hiburan untuk gue ketawa,menenangkan saat gue sebel,meredakan saat gue emosi,menyediakan segala pikiran positif saat gue jealous,bahkan ada disamping saat gue sakit :'( mencari jalan keluar untuk satu masalah bareng-bareng, teman berfikir positif untuk semua fakta negatif, teman yang ada di samping saat berjalan,bukan didepan seperti majikan atau di belakang seperti babu. yang saling mengajari banyak hal,yang mengajari bagaimana rasanya salah paham,membohongi dan dibohongi.

Gue lebih memilih menjadi anak nerdy bergaul sama temen-temen yang pinter,rajin,konyol,easy going dan tulus......................

Maaf kalo ada yang tersinggung di postingan gue kali ini. ga ada maksud apa-apa :)
Thanks to:
Nadya Mara Adelina
Maggie Fay Ariel
Marchsya Andina
Dhea Fadlia
Wiena Murdianasari
Clarisha Zukhrufa

Shiterday

Heyo heyo! you know what? this saturday is my worst saturday ever. why?
First,i'm sick. Fever. but this fever is hurt. i feel like in the north pole cause it feels too cold around me. although i already wear a sweater,socks,scarf oh well that's warm stuff not enough.
Second, Because of this shitty fever i couldn't go to Dio's house yesterday for my class LAST graduation :'( i miss you guys!!!
Third,until this second i'm at home ALONE! please underline this. hello? now is 18.00 o'clock. and i'm at home alone? My mom and daddy with my sister go to the hospital cause my sister's ex got there after put a little teddy bear in front of my house. ya after that he's got tired cause he went to my house (karawaci) from Bandung and not even eat from the afternoon.

okay,this is the complete explanation
My sister's ex,i called ka gusta called me 2 years ago to told me that he would came to my house tomorrow,so i said it's okay just come. He wanted to came because my sister was sick and wanted to gift something. but he told me that he wont my sister know so i kept this up from my sister. And the next day he call me and said he will be arrived at 8 pm because he must take the exam at his college in Bandung He told that after he done with the exam he will come soon from Bandung. At 8 pm he call me again that he already in front of my house but i can't go outside because i was sick too. So he said he only put the gift in front of my house. Then he said the keyword is 'left hand' i don't know what he means but i only said yes. After that he go home. I go outside and take the gift with rose on the top. oh so sweeet (i haven't got roses yet -__-) but a few minutes later i got phone call from ka gusta's number so i accepted it. this is the confrence i write it in indonesia:

*: hallo,selamat malam benar ini saudaranya agusta?
m: iya benar,ini siapa ya? ko bisa pegang handphonenya ka gusta?
*: ini security siloam,mbak tinggal dimana ya?
m: di karawaci. ha? security siloam? ko bisa?
* : tadi agusta pingsan di parkiran siloam,mbak kalo bisa segera dateng kesini
m: hah? oh yaya tapi gimana bisa ya pak?
* : ya pokoknya mbak dateng aja dulu kesini,agustanya ada di ugd.

This like ohmygod! i don't know what to do. i said to my sister and with my mom she go to siloam.

Silly world,like in the film right?

Saturday, June 20, 2009

GRADUATEEEEEE!!!!

cieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee SMPN 19 LULUS 100%
Nemku 37.05 ya Tuhaaaaaaaaaaaaaan semoga bisa masuk 70 Amiiiiiiiiin!!!
ohya tadi ada juga gitu orang yang bilang ga bakal masuk 10 besar tapi ternyata masuk :p kan gue sebeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel! haha udah mukanya ga berdosa banget lagi! pokonya minta janji traktiran nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! Pokoknya Congrats buat kita semua semoga bisa keterima SMA yang kita inginkan Amiiiiiiiiiiiin :) udah ah capeee,bye!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

OH MY GOSH

WHY ALWAYS THAT LITTLE BITCHY GIRL?

Friday, June 12, 2009

23:16


Heeeeeeeey bingung kan jam segini gue masih bangun?

yayaya jadi ceritanya gue,dhea dan marchsya lagi nginep di rumah natasha di bintaro wekekeke jadi ceritanya mau midnight gitu,pada lagi dengerin lagu dan tapi beda laptop gitu sibuk masing-masing. Ngantuk sih tapi gak seru ah masa bobooo. Harun gamau nemeniiiiiiiin abis esia butut hoooooo siapa sih nih menggangu aja emg jam segini masih bnyk yg telpon2an apa?? busy deh esia wooo. Ehya cieeeeeeeeee Harun yang officialy keterima tarnus, 2 july ya run? okdeh. hm ngapain lagi ya? bosen nih. ohya gue belum lepas softlens soalnya lupa bawa cairannya jadi gimana dong ya? hmmmm gatau juga nih. apa ya apa ya?? -_______- yaudah ah bosen bosen ugh


Saturday, June 06, 2009

Mighty Cheerleading!

Ngomong-ngomong judul blog gue kemaren; 'Awesome' jadi inget yell cheers gue jaman bahela. Di buat sama temen gue maskot cheers deh dia hehe namanya Fathiaa :) tapi tahun lalu dia pindah ke NY,sedih yaaaaa. kira-kira gini yell nya

Awesome! Oh wow!
Like tottaly freak me out
I mean right on
NTC sure are number one uh!

This is Fathia:
(imut-imut kaaaaan? hehe maaf ya fath gue tilep di fb lo hihi)

hahaha dulu sebelum REDS kan namanya masih NTC (Nineteen Cheerleader)
Kangeeeen deh jadinya sama Fathia yang imut-imut ituuuuuuu hihi
Kapan-kapan main ke Indonesia dong Fath :D
Pokoknya Cheerleading pengalaman yang gak bakal gue lupain, dulu waktu masuk 19 liat demo ekskul aja langsung jatuh cinta sama cheers, trus ikut audisi nya yang lama dan susah dan ribet dan berbelit-belit (agak nyesek ada juga yang masuk tanpa seleksi) bareng Fathia akhirnya gue jadi 1 dari 5 orang yang langsung kepilih. Bayangin dong segitu banyaknya yang mau masuk cheers hehehehe bangga neeeeh gue. Agak lebay juga sih. Ya pokoknya buat cheers 19 yang sekarang namanya REDS ttp pertahanin ya kalo bisa tingkatin lagi. Bikin orang-orang yang mandang cheers cuma cewe2 bitch yang genit-genit ilang. Bikin yang bilang baju kita senonoh (padahal itu udah paling ketutup) diem ngeliat our mighty team :)
This is REDS @ PL 2008


And all my mighty girlsssssssssssssssssssss :)



cheers for our life
Soundtrack For My Beloved One....

1. Maggie
Gue akan selalu inget penggemar 'dung-dung' ini kalo lagunya Ran-Pandangan Pertama di puter. Waktu kelas 8 pas Ran ngehits banget kita langsung suka kan gieeee? Gue tergila-gila sama Nino kalo lo pertama Rayi tapi jadi pindah ke Asta karna menurut lo keren bet gitarnya haha kalo dulu sering banget di puter di radio kelas-kelas trus pas bagian 'summertime ain't a summertime......' kita langsung nyanyi bareng pake gaya tangannya Rayi haha, Gue bakal kangeeeeeen bgt gie sama loooo temen gue dari kelas 7 c:

2. Nana
Wah kalo nana pastinya Vidi dooooooooong! kita kan selalu histeris kalo ada Vidi di tv hahaha norakz nya kiteeee. tapi emang dia ganteng ya kan naaa? cool cool ugh gitu deccc haha
sama lagunya drew yang unromantic! lo banget tuh suka nyanyi pas baru ngehits hahaha! kangeeeeen deh pastinya kalo denger lagu itu langsung ke inget nana hihi

3. Marchsya & Dhea
Kalo mereka ini gue bakal inget kalo ada lagu2nya Panic! At The Disco, Cobra Starship, Fall Out Boy pokoknya Ryan Ross sama Brendon Urie kalian banget deh! hahaha

4. Yova & Wiena
Pastiiiiiiii gue inget kalian kalo ada lagu disney. Sebenernya Yova yang tergila-gila sama Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, Miley Cyrus daaaaaaaan No Air-Jordin sama Chris. Kalo yang Ini beneran jadi inget banget sama Yova soalnya dia pernah bikin Video ttg keluarganya pake soundtrack ini hehehe. Kalo Wiena apa yaaa? Mungkin karna sama Yova mulu jadi inget Yova inget Wiena juga. Tapi akhir2 ini jadi inget wiena kalo dengerin Graduation-Vitamin C soalnya dia yang paling hafal hihihi

thanks you guys,you all my best!

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

A Million Miles Away-Rihanna



Here we lay face to face once again
Silence cuts like a knife as we pretend.
And I'm wondering who will be the first to say what we both know
We're just holding on to "could have been"s and we should be letting go.

It feels like you're a million miles away as you're lying here with me tonight.
I can't even find the words to say I can find a way to make it right.
And we both know that the story's ending,
We play the part but we're just pretending and I can't hide the tears
'cause even though you're here,
It feels like you're a million miles away.

Was it me, or was it you that broke away?
For what we were is like a season love is change
And every time I think about it, it tears me up inside.
Like the rivers of emotion but I got no more tears to cry.

We can try to talk it over but we walked that road before,
While our song is playing its last note,
We both know for sure that it's time to close that door.

And i said: we just pretend that we both will be okay
but deep inside my heart i desperately feel bad
when you said we can go through all of this
i can see in your eyes
you and yourself that you're not sure

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

:(

sediiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiih
gagal deh.................
wiena: masih ada kesempatan ko mill
nana: kegagalan adalah keberhasilan yang tertunda
natasha & nathia : coba tahun depan aja ya mill,bagus ko udah masuk 60 besar
yova: jangan putus asa mill,masih banyak kesempatan
maggie: sabar ya mills

di gogirl edisi may ini muka gue salah bgttt ya gak? haha
yaudahlah,berarti ini yang terbaik
Ambil positifnya aja,kan crowning nightnya tgl 20 June,sedangkan seharusnya 20 June Graduation bareng temen-temen. Berarti Tuhan ngasih gue kesempatan buat ngerasain wisuda dan hari terakhir bareng temen- temen ya kaaaan?
masih banyak kesempatan ko,tunggu di tahun depan ya! hihi
i had hope for the best and prepare for the worst
just smile :)

Monday, May 04, 2009

SENAAAAAAANG

hari ini cape pulang sendiri naik bus,mana lagi pusing banyak masalah (see previous blog). sampe rumah buka sepatu,kaos kaki. menuju ke kamar smabil melepas dasi. tiba-tiba ada amplop bertuliskan tiki di atas meja belajar yang berantakan banget bikin kepala tambah pusing. pas dilihat amplop depannya bertuliskan : gogirl. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA dengan seketika gue buka amplopnya sambil berdoa dalam hati. daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan kalimat pertama adalah: Congrats! langsung seketika itu juga gue teriak sampe pembantu gue kira gue jatoh dari tangga hahaha bodo yang penting senaaaaaaaaang. dan saat itu langsung sms harun dan telfon nana hihihi. SO, what was the letter about?
COOMING SOON!
PLEASE STILL PRAY FOR ME!

Rainbow after Rain

lagi dan lagi
kalo ga ada ombak,perahu ga mungkin bisa jalan.
ya prinsip itu aja yang selalu gue pegang
stelah nonton gossip girl season 2d,gue nanya sama salah satu temen gue,kenapa Dan Humprey sama Serena putus? dan jawabannya: kalo di luar mill,kalo mereka udah sering berantem,ga nyambung lagi artinya mereka udah ga bisa work it out lagi then they have to break up. Hah? segampang itu? itu yang gue alamin sekarang,tapi gue ga milih that way ko. belakangan ini,gue merasa ga diperhatiin,merasa sendiri,gatau peran gue apa dan jadi bingung dia menganggap gue apa. gue selalu menasehati teman-teman gue dengan kata-kata: think possitive. tapi kenapa mantra itu ga mempan buat gue? gue ga bisa berfikir possitive lagi. rasanya minggu ini gue pingin ke mars kayak dr.mannhatan lakukan di watchmen. menyendiri dan bisa teriak sekenceng-kencengnya sampai gue bisa denger suara gue sendiri padahal gue tau di mars hampa udara. gue baru updated status fb gue: so why do we got here? ya,itu yang gue tanyain. kenapa kita bisa sampai disini? apa artinya semua ini? kalo gue ga bisa diandalkan untuk hanya meringankan sedikit aja beban seberat apapun itu. untuk hanya bisa buat dia senyum ngejalanin masalah-masalahnya. peran gue apa? gue itu siapa? who am i?
ko ga ada yang jawab?
please jawab gue siapa? gue siapa buat lo? di hidup lo? hah? siapa?
tapi tanpa semua ini mungkin gue ga bisa belajar rasanya ga di perhatiin,di tinggalin bahkan ke luar negri. untuk membuat semua ini berjalan mungkin butuh sedikit ombak.
ombak untuk membuat perahu jalan,angin untuk menjalankan kapal layar.
biar ini jadi angin,jadi ombak bahkan badai
dan bukannya setelah badai,Tuhan janji akan kasih pelangi?

Saturday, March 21, 2009

boringness

i'm back with a new bloooog,
the good news from me was i ALREADY leave my past.and now i have my present hehe
sekarang tepatnya lagi di kamar nana,berduaan di tempat tidur wah wah hahaha gadeeeeng kan nana lagi ngeliat handphone gue dan gue lagi nge blog jadi ga ngapa-ngapaiiiiin ;p
and we are such a good girl right? ngahaha oke lupakan. oya, jadi kenapa ceritanya gue bisa ada disini sekarang? tadi sepulang atletik di senayan yang menghabiskan lumayan energi karena gue lari 2 puteran ( haha ) gue main ke rumah nana. tadinya ada: dhea,marchsya,yova,andhika dan rasyid. umm sayangnya harun ga ikut karna main futsal. ( ya ya i haven't tell you that i'm taken noooow with my special classmate guy! he is tall,thin,genius aaand such a kind and sweeeet ) padahal ceritanya dulu kita berantem mulu haha sinetrooon.... ckck ok back to basic, ya jadi hari ini di habiskan dengan nonton 3 dvd yaitu eagle eye,august rush dan benjamin button. and my favorite was eagle eye karana shia nya hua hua banget,most watched! dan kami delivery pizza hut meat lover chessy bite ( that was my favorite ) and eat it rakusly hahaha and now karna ke boringan jadi nulis blog aja
oke,ini blog memang penting banget untuk dibaca
bye :)